Behind the Seams of Flower Dute: Scraps, to Scribble, to Sample. The Creative Process.
I should warn you now that my creative process is not a movie montage of me scribbling away with light horns playing in the background. It's never a cinematic, come to Jesus type of moment. It's a lot of stress crying at 3 am and touching fabrics over and over, staring at them until they tell me what I need to do with them, and more of a mess of images and imaginary moments strung together, sometimes inspired by songs or emotions. Sometimes, I don't know what to do until 12 hours before a shoot or runway. That's just how my brain works.
While designing this collection, I was at the tail end of my depression in late fall. I thought of the things I desired to experience again; joy, relief, enthusiasm, intoxication, dancing until 4 am. I wanted to feel comfortable in my own skin and confident, to stop just existing and to feel alive again. Slowly, ideas came to me. Going to the fabric store was no longer a painful reminder of what I could not do. I can truly only design and sew when I am mentally healthy, it unfortunately brings me no relief to sew when I am depressed, and it is actually incredibly difficult to move forward with any project.
The name Flower Dute comes from a pretty glassware company that withstands heat. To me, it made so much sense, this collection represents how withstanding the heat of life, having resilience, and reviving your vivacious-ness(!!!!) is what makes you beautiful. Fun fact, anyone who knows me knows I love clear glass and the works of Janet Fish.
Some songs that inspired/helped finish the collection are linked here, the two movies that really came through for my creative process were Kama Sutra: A Tale of Love, and Marie Antoinette. Of course I can not link these, but they should be available on Netflix or Amazon.
Jimmy - M.I.A.
Vente Pa Ca - Ricky Martin
Kiss them for Me - Siouxsie and the Banshees
Run Away with Me - Carly Rae Jepson
Hot Stuff - Donna Summers
Gasonlina Bootleg - Blasterjaxx